Monday, December 01, 2008

25 days to Christmas


I have been in a real funk lately. I could sit here and say that I don't know what is wrong but if I really sat down and was forced to spit out what has me in such bad moods lately I would start on this never-ending list of thing - little things - that are bothering me every day. I think that even thougth they seem like little things, they could potentially be big things...so I just let them cook on the back stove while I get on with other business.

Sigh.

I'm in the middle of projects, nothing quite concluded yet and that leaves me with little energy. The book? They loved it. They loved it so much that they've asked me to add 40 pages to it so they can charge a little more for it. Asking me to write forty pages is like...getting blood from a stone! I love to write, hate to write, and have still not found the perfect combination on how to go about doing that. But I have to. They were super sweet to me and I'm actually going to be earning more money than I thought I would once that sucker is published. I'm still in the planning stages for the 40 page add-on but tomorrow I have to give my business coach my book GANT so I better get moving.

Sigh.

We need a bigger house. We live in a two bedroom, two bath, one huge livingroom with small office space and small yard house with 2 adults, 1 teenager and one child. The only person in the house that has her own personal space is the teenager. I feel like I'm going crazy sometimes and have a HUGE problem concentrating on my writing with all the chaos around. On the other hand, no money to buy a bigger house unless we move to the suburbs or another city, which I don't want to do right now. Rent an office space? Rent a room to write in and work in? Could be a solution. Now that I've written it down it actually looks like an idea. I'll think on that a bit.

Sigh.

The only thing that's making me happy right now is the cutey-pie above. Today at school they had the roller-skating final Christmas Show Extravaganza. I had to control myself from laughing too much - they were so cute! Ev was very cautious, never going too fast, always in control. Sort of like he always is. I love him so much :-)

2 comments:

anji said...

Wow, first off -- they still make rollerskates??? Too cute :D

Secondly... ahhh, office space! That'd open up the office space to be a bedroom and I have NO idea how you've coped as long as you have. I remember feeling it was a small place BEFORE Ev came along!

You'd have a little place you could just get away... hide... have alone time.... share it with Piero (maybe).... paint it a nice bright, happy colour... get a little couch, have a siesta and just be sure you can actually DO work, when you want to :)

jbmmommy said...

He is adorable!

And best wishes getting through all the other stuff. I've had times like that myself recently, some days better than others. Take care.